Go Ahead & Make Plans

I thought I would be in Seattle by now... really I did.  I completely underestimated how long it would take to sell the house and/or find a job.  I think I'm a catch, and so is my house... so why am I still here?!!  I am not angry about it... I'm getting a bit bored, but I'm not angry.  It's weird because lately people have wanted to make plans and their question is always "do you have plans for....???"  and our answer is always no.  See, we weren't planning to be here, so we didn't make any plans past April 30.  That's when the first time home buyer credit expired, and when we thought we would be busy packing.  But I guess that just wasn't in the stars!

So here we are... finally making plans.  Today I planted a vegetable garden in the back yard... that is after pulling out an entire trash can full of weeds... on the menu: corn, carrots, sweet potatoes, cherry tomatoes, and basil.  I'm excited... it's the first thing I've really been excited about for awhile.  I have gotten used to not making long term plans... which is quite a shift for me.  I've always been one of those people who make plans 2-3 months out... sometimes more if it's a vacation.... now I am living week to week.  Shaun and I decided last week that we might as well just make plans to be in Ohio all summer... since that's the way it looks like it's going to be.  And I'm actually ok with it (not great, but ok). 

I do however want to make plans way in advance.  I wish I could start shopping for Christmas (yes, I'm one of those people)... and could make plans for Labor Day... see in Ohio I would be going to my family reunion... in Seattle I would be going to Bumbershoot... either way I will have fun... but.... I JUST WANT TO KNOW!!!  I think the worst is not being able to go to things I know I will regret for my entire life.  My best friend from college is getting married in 2 months... in Alaska.  I had planned to go more than a year ago when I got the save the date... but then lost my job.  I still thought, hey it would be a closer flight from Seattle, maybe I can still go... but as the date gets closer and closer it's really starting to sink in that I will not get to see her wedding... and that will haunt me forever.  I know she will say it's ok, that's just the type of person she is... but for me... it's something that you just go to... without thought.  So, anyone want to buy me a plane ticket to Alaska?!?!