My Wishlist

Last night was an amazing concert.  Pearl Jam took the stage in Noblesville, IN, and I was thinking about everything that has become of my life.  In the past few years, especially the last few months, there are times when I feel my life is spinning out of control.  I know it could be worse, it could always be worse... but sometimes I just wish I could take a moment to... enjoy the moment.  I've been focusing a lot on that lately and last night was a great moment to enjoy.

One of my favorite Pearl Jam songs is "Wishlist," and when it was playing I was thinking about how wishlists change as you get older.  When you are a kid you don't worry about anything except getting the cool new toy.  As you get older you start wishing that you will get a good grade in school, pass that test, make the sports team, become prom queen.... stuff like that.  In college you wish for a great job, lots of money, a doctor for a husband, etc  After college you enter the real world... and your wish list is completely changed.  Now you wish you have a job that you enjoy, even if it doesn't mean you are a millionaire at 30, you wish you have a place to call home, even if it means that you give up that mansion with a butler... and you wish you have a man who loves you for you.

During the song (lyrics below), I thought to myself... I am happy.  I may not have a job... but I have the hope that I will soon be doing something I love and will feel appreciated.  I have a home... yes I'm trying to sell it... but it's home with Shaun and my cats and bunny.  And I am lucky to have a man who loves me for me... and that makes my wishlist... almost complete.

"Wishlist" by Pearl Jam:
I wish I was a neutron bomb, for once I could go off
I wish I was a sacrifice but somehow still lived on
I wish I was a sentimental ornament you hung on
The Christmas tree, I wish I was the star that went on top
I wish I was the evidence, I wish I was the grounds
For 50 million hands upraised and open toward the sky

I wish I was a sailor with someone who waited for me
I wish I was as fortunate, as fortunate as me
I wish I was a messenger and all the news was good
I wish I was the full moon shining off a Camaro's hood

I wish I was an alien at home behind the sun
I wish I was the souvenir you kept your house key on
I wish I was the pedal brake that you depended on
I wish I was the verb 'to trust' and never let you down

I wish I was a radio song, the one that you turned up
I wish...
I wish...