207 Threads To Tie It All Together

I'm not sure why buying something so simple can completely change my mood.  Today, Shaun and I made the trek to Ikea... after shopping, eating some delicious meatballs, and more shopping... I finally convinced Shaun that we need more gender neutral bedding.  I know it seems ridiculous to spend money on new bedding when I am on such a limited income.... but I do have some reasoning behind this purchase.

1. The duvet cover I have is really nice, it's 100% cotton, smooth... and white with flowers. At the time I got it, it wasn't my first choice... it was just the most economical choice that I also liked.  Since Shaun and I now share a home, I started feeling bad that there was so much "girly" stuff around.... so the new cover is much more gender neutral.

2. I've had my other duvet cover since I got the down comforter... 7 years ago.  So I think that should count for something as time to upgrade... right?

3. At Ikea it's still A LOT cheaper than a lot of other places!  A king size cover (which is what I need) is only $40... at someplace like Bed Bath and Beyod... it would be at least $100.  So that at least makes it a deal!

I really shouldn't need reasons to want to treat myself... but I do find it funny how a 207 thread count duvet cover can make me so happy and motivated to change so much all at the same time!!!  I have a vision on how I want to change some things... now I just need to find the rest of the pieces!

Bored to Tears

This week I have been stuck at home (Shaun's car is in the shop and since he has a job he used mine)... and I'll tell you what... I AM BORED!!!!!!!!!!!!!  I sit at home and feel sorry for myself, borderline depression and all I am trying to smile.. but it's not easy.  I realized today that it has been an entire month since we've even had a showing and I'm starting to really feel like our house with never sell.  This of course makes it hard to want to keep it clean and keep it in perfect showing condition... let alone go ahead and spend time and money fixing up the landscaping, etc.

But that's not all... I also get down about not being able to find a job... I really honestly believe I am a catch... I just don't think anyone else knows that.  I know this feeling will pass.. the feeling that I am stuck, not just in the house, but in life.... I'm just not sure when.

I am lucky since I have a loving family... both in my house and extended... and they will remind me that I am wonderful... but until then... I am going to have a few days where I just feel sorry for myself.