This week I had to reapply for unemployment... not something I thought I was going to have to do back in October. I mean I'm a college grad with 5 years experience and great references.... but alas, 6 months later here I am, calling on my designated unemployment day and once again feeling horrible.
See, when you call you have to relive that moment... that moment you sat there and heard it was going to be your last day... and that moment... well it down right sucks. On the phone the unemployment specialist asks you a whole series of questions... all of which make me realize maybe my old job didn't respect me.
Did you get severance? NO. Will they be rehiring you in the next few months? NO. Do you have any prospects? Not really. And lastly... "let's check and see if there are any openings in the system.... no."
It's a hard thing to realize... that you are not as needed as you thought you were. I knew towards the end of my 5 year stint that I wasn't appreciated. Emails were ignored, meetings rescheduled over and over again, the last few weeks they didn't even try to hide my future plans. And while I could be bitter, and was for a little bit, I really do feel like in the end I will be happier. I am over all much happier with my life now, I sleep more, and better... I see friends and family... I have better relationships with them... I eat healthier and see the sun... my life is great. And I don't dwell on the bad memories, I try to focus on the good ones and look to the future, but when you have to reapply... it all comes rushing back.
I have never been fired before... and hope to never be again... it's not a fun experience... but once you get over that initial shock you can really focus on your future and finding a job that WILL appreciate you for what you have to offer. Oh, and a word of advice... don't wait until your benefits completely run out before you reapply... you will be stuck with a few weeks of no cash.
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I know what you're talking about on the never wanting to be fired again, but at least you had an idea, when I lost my job at eoc I had NO warning, but I was cool about it, until I found out all the lying bs that went on, but that's besides the point. As long as you are happier without that place, and healthier, then you weren't fired, they did you a favor. Its their loss without you. Ignoring your personal well being for a job isn't worth it. And remember, you Earned that unemployment! Every day you showed up to work that money added up waiting for now. :)
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